Posts tagged with “family”
If death disturbs, think on it...
Believe it or not thinking of Jimmy Saville and the fact of his death and influences spreading there from startled me from my bed. I lie - it was thinking of my childhood and my father that had me in the sweats tonight. But I do not find the comparison so odious nor so hard to make (of course this would disgust my father and indeed my family, but what of that?). However and though the link may seem obscure it is not really. Jim "fixed it" for kids (the phrase must surely echo down spreading horror now, how many abusers was he really "the fixer" for?) but was the sin all his, no there must have been countless folks who simply stood by and did nothing.... But this is not what I was thinking of again, I lie and it tells a tale that I distract with macabre and horrific tales, perhaps they feel the only adequate camouflage for what I perceive as an equal horror, an equal omission. The standing by as my mothers life drained from her poor young body, as the poison took hold. For surely this was done? Surely someone could have saved her? And surely someone could have seen how affected, almost, one could say, afflicted, I was and maybe tried to help me? [edit] But I am probably missing it - they probably did. Shame they failed... but at least they tried... [/edit] 11:41 PM | 0 Comments | Tags: Jimmy Saville, angry, father, family, parenting, sadness, bereavement, Childhood, motherPorno torture with techno overtures
OMG baby,,,, I seem to have been able to spend so much more on a digital device that I shall be waiting many moons and more to ever see such a device from Comm-Tech and then there is the official secrets act and then there is the fact that I can no longer watch pornography and then there is (far too late of course) my relationship with someone else apart from family damn famile I want to be asleep I want to not care I want you to not care I need to ride my bicycle I am riding my bicycle I shall be in France before anyone else gets this bye bye Annie PS now edited to be legible, but some of the spelling correction suggestions for my mangling of the English for "Velo" were hilarious, among them "bacillary" and "celibacy"! PPS (I am extremely ashamed of writing the last two lines and have left them in in the spirit of honety, hoping they are not hurtful, since they were so far from truthful....) 02:48 AM | 0 Comments | Tags: stupid, bedtime, private, birthday, partnership, family, Annie, bicycle, cyclingChristmas
How to offset the cycling obsession? Icy weather is likely to make a natural intervention sooner or later at this time of year. It is a time to look towards making things special for the ones I love. For the first time I can remember I seem to have actually bought all the presents for Christmas before my birthday! I do need to think of a better present for my partner than a rear wheel with drum brake for the tandem though, to give that could result in murder at Christmas! Oddly I have ended up with an "orphan present", a volume of poetry called "the Bees" by Carol Ann Duffy. It was such a beautiful book I could not resist it and although I could give it to my daughter's mother it does not seem appropriate. Perhaps I shall keep it as an indulgence to myself, or perhaps someone will present themselves as suitable to be the recipient. This is a far less thoughtful or creative or eccentric post than I should like, it feels mundane. I shall set myself the task of writing something poetic next time about parents who "give too much" at this time of year and the dangers inherent (I'm very conscious of this after braking the bank to get my daughter a laptop far superior to anything any of the grown-ups can afford!) 07:52 AM | 0 Comments | Tags: Christmas, kids, tandem, Annie, poetry, family, parenting, cyclingElegy Query Epitaph Query Obituary
Assasination by poem, if it were possible, would be a fitting end for my father.
The Iambic pentameter what done it Guv -
A cunning plan for the perfect crime - read a poem where the rhythm is SO powerful it accelerates the beat of the heart
Therapy in testimony?
What my mother did for me
I was born and she died
What my step-mother did for me
Took my father to task for calling me a pigs arse
Stopped my father stealing my leather jacket
Called herself my mother
What my father did for me - that's a toughie
And society thinks I should respect that?
06:49 AM | 0 Comments | Tags: poem, familyGet the Bones out of the Flesh!
My darling daughter was told of the engagement yesterday morning (the first to know!).
She has been a wonderful bag of excitement ever since and on top form. As some might notice I think she has great potential as a creative person and (who knows) maybe even poetry. Her first effort was very impressive to me, even though I am her Dad others have said as much.
Well when we went to our favourite restaurant last night
she was very eager that they know about the engagement (they are after all a family restaurant and we eat there regularly so they all know us). We had finished the meal and still it had not revealed what we were celebrating. In her eagerness for us to say it and be done she used a sudden and impulsive turn of phrase;
"GO ON NOW, GET THE BONES OUT OF THE FLESH!"
And we were all very impressed by her `turn of phrase` - she immediately followed up our astonishment by telling us that we were never to use the phrase without attribution that they were her words - she was very specific about that as only a nine year old daughter can be - I'm even prouder of her for asserting "copyright" to her utterance than I am by the almost Donne like turn of phrase!
PS I scroogled to check the originality, and this was all I turned up pertinent so far as I could see!
PPS Happy birthday today to;
Cathy
Robert
The Sunday Program on Radio Four
08:33 AM | 0 Comments | Tags: Robert, copyright, family, kids, children, Isabel, DonneCategories of Engagement
It is not too often the personal intrudes on this blog (I hope!) But today I would like to indulge myself a little. Anyone who has been here before will perhaps notice that there are a couple of new categories creeping in here.
One is cycling - and the tandem features (Now enhanced with lights and super bell and ready to roll!).
The other is marriage - and this is because I am now engaged to be wed, I have plighted my troth! It will be a long engagement, but if any matters come up which I think I can talk about here (or even if I read anything which seems connected) then I may post to this category.
On which subject my fiancee thinks this blog would reach a much wider audience and I can see what she means (though am uncertain I really want the world and it's brother to be reading this - my hosting could not cope for a start!). BUT I have decided to see if I can register the domain "eclectic.me" as a possible alternative.
UNLESS anyone has any better ideas for the name of this blog? AND YES; I do realise the heading banner and design would be due for a complete overhaul as a result, then again I am quite keen to improve the site's accessibility and so should not mind this.
A post should be forthcomng to review the book "Chicago" soon and not sure what will follow from that, perhaps a thrilling account of the first tandem tour involving panniers and distance!
05:54 AM | 0 Comments | Tags: Annie, Quaker, singing, love, kindness, children, rice, accessibility, family, bicycle, cycling, partnership, choral, tandem
Under Milk Wood
Ah well - it was a nice break but I never did get to visit New Quay and only saw a little of Llanggrog let alone immerse myself in "Under Milk Wood". It seems like this is a work of literature which is destined to take it's place alongside Ulysses, The Wasteland, and Proust as one which I admore and always intend to get around to fully enjoying but am "saving up" as a treat rather like a child who will not eat the favoured item on the plate until the rest has been consumed.
On occassion I worry that this means I shall never enjoy these, but hopefully that is not the case, because it would be a shame if it were. Perhaps at least in blogging I have a gentle reminder to myself to get around to it one day (I am sure in making the initial post I was trying to give myself an incentive and motivation for this one. Perhaps part of the problem is that I "save them up" for a holiday and the fact is that they are more serious works of literature and not "holiday reading" as such?
07:09 AM | 0 Comments | Tags: Richard Burton, Llanggrog, Under Milk Wood, holiday, family